What am I looking for you ask? What will it take????

Who am I? What am I looking for??? I know these are seemingly big questions, but in reality its simple....if you know me!

You know the basics. I am 38, single mom, grandmother, nurse and Beachbody coach. But that's not what makes me who I am. Yes its a big part...its the outcome of my attributes, talents, mistakes, accomplishments etc. I am deeper than that. I am my beliefs and values. I am the product of my love and my heartbreaks. I am MY reality.

I come across people everyday that are going through loneliness and wonder why they are single and if they will die alone. (none of die alone...first hand stories for another day) I try to listen and be sympathetic. I explain that anyone can go out and just get a boyfriend/girlfriend but the fact that we don't means we have standards. Of course you can go out and lower them but who the hell wants too. I sure wont!

I am told I am too picky. Guess what??? I have the right to be! I have been abused in every definition of the word for most of my adult life. I have picked myself up with minimal help and support. I survived on my own. I have succeeded in things on my own. I carried my children through snow to walk to work and to buy groceries. I put myself through school without a car as a young single mother. I kept my children fed and with a roof. ME! So yes I can be picky!

What will it take for Amanda to settle down??? Pretty basic. Respect, honesty, appreciation for not only me but for others and the world around us, and self worth in himself. I do not want a needy or jealous man. I will not accept hostility towards the world or ignorance. I am far from perfect but I will not accept someone who has no belief in themselves. Confidence NOT cockiness!!
I want someone with mutual interests but can go out on his own and enjoy HIS life as well. I want strength and courage not showoff! I think you may be understanding now.

See but the thing is Im ok alone! I have myself, children and friends. I have love in my life. I have intimacy on many levels. Of course I get "lonely" who doesn't, even with a partner. Thing is Im ok with it because I will not give up my self worth ever just to obtain a relationship status change.

I have deeply loved. I have learned to let go. I have also carried that forever "what if love" with me for 25 years. I actually love very deep, heart on my sleeve...fierce. That's special and not to be given to just anyone....not anymore! I am giving that love to myself first!!

So if you're still confused...here it is in simple form:
don't expect me to date you if you're NOT READY TO DATE, mean, insensitive, selfish, extremely one sided politically, abusive even in your tone of speech, unfaithful, dishonest, insecure, have pity parties, needy, incapable of HEARING others, extremely religious and less spiritual, unable to accept I have a life outside of you, jobless with no direction and no integrity.

Don't try and sit at my table if you cant bring at least what I have already brought!